The First United Methodist Church of Napa, CA

September 24, 2005

The 19th Sunday after Pentecost

Scripture Readings:

 

Hebrew Scripture – Exodus 17: 1-7[1]

 

1From the wilderness of Sin the whole congregation of the Israelites journeyed by stages, as the LORD commanded. They camped at Rephidim, but there was no water for the people to drink. 2The people quarreled with Moses, and said, “Give us water to drink.” Moses said to them, “Why do you quarrel with me? Why do you test the LORD?” 3But the people thirsted there for water; and the people complained against Moses and said, “Why did you bring us out of Egypt, to kill us and our children and livestock with thirst?” 4So Moses cried out to the LORD, “What shall I do with this people? They are almost ready to stone me.” 5The LORD said to Moses, “Go on ahead of the people, and take some of the elders of Israel with you; take in your hand the staff with which you struck the Nile, and go. 6I will be standing there in front of you on the rock at Horeb. Strike the rock, and water will come out of it, so that the people may drink.” Moses did so, in the sight of the elders of Israel. 7He called the place Massah and Meribah, because the Israelites quarreled and tested the LORD, saying, “Is the LORD among us or not?”

 

Gospel Lesson – Matthew 21: 23-32[2]

 

23When he entered the temple, the chief priests and the elders of the people came to him as he was teaching, and said, “By what authority are you doing these things, and who gave you this authority?” 24Jesus said to them, “I will also ask you one question; if you tell me the answer, then I will also tell you by what authority I do these things. 25Did the baptism of John come from heaven, or was it of human origin?” And they argued with one another, “If we say, ‘From heaven,’ he will say to us, ‘Why then did you not believe him?’ 26But if we say, ‘Of human origin,’ we are afraid of the crowd; for all regard John as a prophet.” 27So they answered Jesus, “We do not know.” And he said to them, “Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things.

28“What do you think? A man had two sons; he went to the first and said, ‘Son, go and work in the vineyard today.’ 29He answered, ‘I will not’; but later he changed his mind and went. 30The father went to the second and said the same; and he answered, ‘I go, sir’; but he did not go. 31Which of the two did the will of his father?” They said, “The first.” Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, the tax collectors and the prostitutes are going into the kingdom of God ahead of you. 32For John came to you in the way of righteousness and you did not believe him, but the tax collectors and the prostitutes believed him; and even after you saw it, you did not change your minds and believe him.

 

 “The Path You Take Is the Thing that Matters."

 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

 

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

 

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

 

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I –

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.[3]

 

          These words, of course, are from Robert Frost's poem entitled "The Road Not Taken."  The "difference" really isn't in the road itself, but in the person doing the choosing of which one to take.  The road that the poet took wasn't just a "different" road – the right road for him – but, given who he was, it was the only road he could've taken.[4]  The path you take in life matters.

          Whoever said, "There are all kinds of people who would admit their faults, if they believed they had any," might well have been thinking of this second son in our parable who said "yes," but didn't mean it.  In this thinly disguised example, he's the one who symbolizes those Jewish priests and elders who opposed Jesus and his teachings at every turn.  Identified as the nation's mentors and leaders, they're described here as being ordained with nothing more than layers of impenetrable pride.  They're accused of being blindly self-righteous.  All that Jesus has been saying to them about forgiveness and love has fallen on deaf ears.  The other old adage, then, that says, "The person who thinks he or she has no faults has at least one," Jesus blatantly applies to these pillars of his own community.

          Now the second son, who at first says "no," but then changes his mind, represents all of us – flawed but fault-conscious human beings typified by "tax collectors and prostitutes."  By our own thoughtless, and often unethical and immoral lives, we've said "no" to Jesus' representation of the kingdom of God.  As we really begin to listen, however, we change our minds and begin to live more responsible and moral lives.

          This is what "repentance" means.  The word in Greek actually implies turning around and going completely in the opposite direction.  Like a whole lot of other good biblical words, though, it's been so overused and seriously bent out of shape and distorted, that we don't pay much attention to it anymore.  But just being able to change your mind after discovering that you've been wrong, and to then take a different path, makes all the difference in the world!  When televangelists like Pat Robertson and Jerry Falwell speak of repentance they infiltrate it with ideas and feelings that were completely inconsistent with what John and Jesus meant when they challenged people to "repent and believe in the good news."[5] 

          "Repentance" has an interesting history.  Its Hebrew equivalent implies "a coming to your senses," and the ways in which it was used by the authors of the Christian Testament[6] implied a whole lot more than just changing your mind:  it meant a complete reorientation of your personality.  Repentance was never supposed to imply that you had to grovel on your knees and plead to a vengeful deity, "O God, have mercy on me!  I am a miserable worm!"  In fact it never was supposed to involve those twin demons of church catechisms:  guilt and shame.  Those two hell-raisers end up giving rise to little more than self-hatred; and hatred, of any kind, is terribly destructive – it never does anybody any good and always does damage that is absolutely awful.

          Repentance isn't meant to be about feeling badly about ourselves, then, over those terrible things that we've done or left undone.  It's more about self-discovery, finally coming to realize that we have potentials we never imagined we had.  It means being jolted awake[7] after sleep-walking for so long, beginning to discover the kinds of stimulating possibilities for our lives that we'd never paid attention to before.  In our past we kept "missing the mark,"[8] but now our eyes have been opened, so at least we can finally see the path and the goal that we should've been "aiming" for all along.

          This little story, then, is about the astonishing discovery that large parts of ourselves have been bottled up, locked away, lying dormant for a long time.  It's about the unique realization that we've more than likely been living without substance or significance for far, far too long.  To suddenly turn around, to begin to go a different way, to change our minds – in short, to repent – means that we surrender to a much richer, far deeper, and more satisfying way of being alive.

          As odd as it might sound, I think that the kingdom of God must be a whole lot like a family – even families that are less than perfect, but choose to love and to stay together.  Families can be noisy; arguments about yours-mine-and-ours can erupt at any time, and often do.  But families know how to "kiss and make up" and to come back together around the dinner table.[9]  Families know both the pleasures of companionship and devotion, as well as the pain of separation and unfaithfulness.  In all of these experiences we look for the face of the Christ and long for his embrace.

          There's a beautiful, if bittersweet, remembrance of family near the end of one of Herbert Gold's novels; he writes:

 

Frieda [the elderly mother] remembered love, but memory slips away.  What remains is the haunting – the desiring edges of memory, the moments of pain and thrill and the dream images of the past.  Now her husband stood at the window, counting the stars he could no longer see.  Sometimes in the past he had wakened for the task of starcounting, and she had interrupted her predawn baking and cleaning to join him there, by the morning light which flooded over them before they were finished.  This haunted lady kept Hilda and Anna [her daughters] alive, and called my father back to life, and reminded her sons of what they too would miss, lack, lose, because everyone loses it, misses it, perhaps finds it and then it slips away.  The blessings of day after day.  The blessings of the moment, possession of the time, a continual refreshment in appetite.  For the sake of these moments we make deals with the impenetrability and strangeness, man to woman, husband to wife, son to mother, which wakes us to do the laundry and the sitting in the middle of the night.  Nobody counted the stars and waited for her anymore.  Ferociously she held to her haunted greed…and passed it on to me.[10]

 

          On a more mundane level, let's say that somebody asks us if we'll serve on a committee here at the church.  Knowing that the job is an important one, feeling just a little bit flattered to be asked, and wanting to serve this community, we say, "Yes, I will."  We have every intention of doing the best possible job.  But then we go to the first meeting.  We listen and watch, trying to figure out what our role might be, but we soon begin to feel somewhere down in our stomach that this isn't what we thought it would be; this isn't where we want to be or what we want to do.  Well, either we resign or (worse) we just stop showing up for the meetings, but we find ourselves gradually withdrawing, not only from the work, but from the people who've stayed to do it without us.

          Hypocrisy is not the issue here.  The matter is much more complex than that:  we had no idea just how profoundly the work asked of us would affect us.  Our "yes" was well intended, but maybe just a bit too quick and naďve, coming before we were truly converted to doing what was asked of us.

          Sometimes the story goes in reverse:  we're asked to serve and we say, "No.  That's not for me."  But we go home and we find that we can't sleep.  We keep thinking, "It's time that I did something about this.  I've just been given the opportunity.  It will take a lot of my time; I'm probably going to have to rearrange my schedule a whole lot.  Still, there's something there for me; if I've got to make some changes in my life to see that the job gets done, then I'll change."  So we show up at the meeting and are greeted with curious comments, like, "I thought you said no!"  "I changed my mind," you say.  And you really have.

          A very wise man, Joshua Liebman, said the choice is always ours to make:

 

The man [or woman] who wishes to achieve stature in the mature world will have to renounce many careers in order to fulfill one.  The same truth exists in the realm of emotions….Time is an irreversible arrow, and we can never return to the self that we sloughed off in childhood or adolescence….Human existence means the closing of doors, many doors, before one great door can be opened – the door of mature love and adult achievement.[11]

 

….

 

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

 

…I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I –

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference[12]

 

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[1] The people of Israel are stuck between "promise" and "fulfillment" in this part of the story about their wanderings through the wilderness.  In this sense their experience is universal:  we too live between the "now" but "not yet" – between life as it is and life as we wish it were.  It's a mark of the life of faith, though, that as we make this journey we also come to believe that, somehow, we're being called, led, re-created and sustained all along the way.

   By the way, the names given for this place are both plays on words in Hebrew:  meribah comes from the verb meaning "to find fault" and massah from the verb "to test."  As the story unfolds, it's important for us to notice just how God responds to the complaints and testing of the people in contrast with Moses. 

[2] Leaders of the Jewish synagogue have come to question Jesus' authority.  He turns their question back onto them, suggesting that authority can either come from God or from human beings, and asks them to say where they thought John the Baptist's authority came from.  They're afraid to answer because they neither want to look foolish nor risk alienating their constituency (and some say that the Bible isn't meant to involve us in politics!).  Their silence becomes a metaphor for the real issue, which is exposed in their answer to yet another one of Jesus' parables.

[3] Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken (Henry Holt and Company, Inc., New York, N.Y., 1985), pp. 270-271.

[4] Ibid.

[5] Mark 1: 4, 15b, et al.

[6] I choose to use "Hebrew Scriptures" and "Christian" or "Second Testament" instead of the more familiar "Old Testament" and "New Testament," because for far too long the latter designation has implied that one is better than the other, or worse, the "new" has replaced the "old."  There is much good news in the Hebrew Scriptures, just as there's what I would call "bad" news in the teachings of the early church.

[7] In fact, that's what the word Buddha literally means:  "the awakened one."

[8] The word for "sin" in Greek (amartia) literally has that archery-like imagery – i.e., even when we think we're "straight-shooters," all too often we're completely "missing the mark."  What may be even worse, we don't realize how really far off the target we are!

[9] It's one more mark of Jesus' genius in choosing the shared meal as the symbol of thanksgiving ("eucharist") and remembering – of the kind of communing that makes holy the whole experience.

[10] Herbert Gold, Family: A Novel in the Form of a Memoir (New York: Arbor House, 1981), p. 191.

[11] Joshua Loth Liebman, quoted in Phillips, Dorothy Berkley, eds. The Choice Is Always Ours (Wheaton, Illinois: Request Books, 1977), pp. 90-91.

[12] loc. cit.